Saturday, Jul. 12, 2008

Wanted: New home

Well, that was a unexpected hiatus.

I haven't really wanted to be online, I haven't wanted to write (or least I haven't wanted to write anything that is good), and I've been thinking about opening up a new place to write. Somewhere that nobody knows me, somewhere that I cannot be recognised, somewhere there is no photos, no links to my identity. Somewhere I can be free to write without the worry of being figured out. I've been thinking about doing this for the past week and the more time passes, the more I have come to realise that I actually need somewhere else besides this place. I have a lot on my plate and there are things that need to be said because I believe they are important to me and anyone else that stumbles across them but everytime I come here I always seem to hold back a part of myself, the part that doesn't want other people's pity, the part that doesn't want other people to know my vunerabilities, the part of me that is the true writer. I can't be a writer unless I can embrace this side of myself openingly and I find that difficult when there is always that possibility that I will be “discovered” and this information may or may not be used against me. And since I am the type of person who doesn't like to be seen as vunerable, who prefers to be seen as cold as ice, I'm figuring it's time for another, new identity.

In the meantime I'll be offline from here for a little while longer to give me a chance to find another blog to write anonymously to but when that happens it will be back to our regular scheduled program.